Untitled by Natalie Andrade

You were the only one who gave me those butterflies in my stomach when I saw you. From the minute I laid eyes on you I knew that I had to make you mine. Weird coming from a girl right. I tried everything to get you to talk to me. Your locker was above mine so of course you noticed me. And soon, as little as a month, we started going out. You became my first love. A first for everything, and we never left each others side. We had so many inside jokes that made us laugh in the middle of class. Even songs that were only meant for our ears to share with one another. I loved every drawing you made for me with your gentle hands that turned every simple thing into a beautiful masterpiece including myself. I remember everything, from the first moment we talked, hugged, kissed, held hands, laughed. What movie we first watched, our song, our favorite food to eat together, I remember it all.             It all came to a halt and crash after a year. Sickened from my heart smashed with your fist I was diagnosed with love sickness. A not so rare disease that needs medication called time. We decided that staying friends was what was best. And if that's all I was going to get then friends it would be. You were my best friend. I only had you then and suddenly now I was lost and alone, stuck in the middle of a maze trying to find my way out. I never thought staying friends was going to be so difficult. Fight. That's all we did. Every blow that hit was returned with my own swings. Trying to make them hurt harder then yours ever did to me. I wasn't strong enough.             It wasn't long until I noticed the change in you. Mary Jane was your mistress, the girl on the side, besides your new girlfriend. My "friend" disappeared faster than I can say this sentence. I still tried my hardest to stay friends. And every time you pushed me down I got right back up and followed. Finally after another year I can now say that I am once and for all over you and that I can move on with nothing holding me back.             I learned that this is just the beginning of many heart aches and happiness that will come. I will meet someone who will make me happy again, and make me feel like I'm actually worth being with. But before I could do this, I needed to find a way to love myself, not someone else. After being with you, I realized what I want in my next relationship. There is no rush. Life does pass you by, and time will fly, but it's all I had left to heal. So thank you for teaching me one of the most important lessons in life.