I stepped into the house and it was dead quite. I drop my books and purse on my bed, and re-apply my make-up five times heavier. My glossy red eyes looked so lonely, without their usual sparkle. I sort of looked like Rudolph with my nose all red from crying. But I caked my foundation on, along with my powder and blush. Who was I kidding? I just looked like a whore on crack! So I washed my face and took a warm bath. While the tub was getting filled I just sat on my bed looking through all the pictures of us. My eyes filled with tears all over again. His blue eyes caught me. I couldn't lie to them. I turned off my phone for the first time. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I took my shirt off slowly, as well as the rest of my clothes. I got in the bath and then the house phone rings. I tried to ignore it. It finally went to voicemail. "Babe please pick up. I know you're there. Are you in the bath? Please pick up. Or call me back. Your cell is off. Why? You never do that? Are you o.k.? Please pick up." Tomie knew every time I felt shitty or depressed I took a bath. He knew that always cheered me up or at least made me feel better. But it worried him whenever I didn't answer the phone. That time I wasn't picking up. Nor calling back. I had enough things to think about and I didn't want to argue. The phone rang again, as I submerged myself into the water, wishing to drown. **Knock, knock** "Babe are you there? Open the door please? Are you o.k.? Please open." I gasped for air. And I began to choke. He heard me. I could no longer hide the fact that I was home. I came out of the bath tub and grabbed a towel. I cracked the door open just a little. And he barged in and hugged me and kissed me. He was so glad to know I was o.k. What was I thinking? He loves me. There's nothing wrong with him. It was all me. "Look Tomie. I didn't answer because as you can tell I was in the bath. And I would appreciate if you let me go. You need to go home. I don't want you to be late home. Your mom will be worried and pist, and it's just not fair for her." I said very coldly. Tomie broke out into sobs. I had never seen him like that before. I couldn't believe it. He was always so tough. But maybe it finally dawned on him that it was real. I hugged him and kissed him. Kissed him so passionately. It started getting heated. I thought about backing away. But for some reason I continued. As if my body needed him. But he froze. "I can't do this I stared at him in the eyes…. "I don't want to marry you Tomie. I thought I did. But as time went on, I just realized that I'm not ready for such commitment. We have a lot of maturing to do. We're not there yet. I feel bad, 'cause I really do love your family and all. But it's just hard to explain. I don't even know what I feel. I'm completely confused. I think that I'm just used to you and you to me. Which isn't good, I know we'll all have a hard time getting use to all this. But time will heal our wounds, hopefully." Tomie looked me in the eyes, again. "I love you Annalynn" "I love you, too, kid." And he finally turned away and left. Part of Part II After that day, things seemed to get better. Not only for me, but for him, too. Five months exactly, I met this wonderful guy. His name was Joshua. He was tall dark. And to my surprise, BALD! He looked like a little cholo. Except without the little in it. He was a thick man. I say man, well because he was older than me. We're not talking creepy old, just about 4-5 years older. He had the best lips ever! Big, thick, luscious. He was pure chocolate to me. Boy did I want him. He just seemed to be who I was looking for. One day after Sunday mass, I was walking out the main doors of the church. I was carrying my guitar, my purse, and my music binder. But because I am so clumsy, everything was slipping off my hands. And just as I was about to step outside trip over the metal lining for the door. A random gust of hair caught my hair, and my stuff flew off my hands. And out of nowhere Joshua popped out and caught me. I was so embarrassed. Way to make a first impression "You o.k. there?" He said with the deepest sexiest voice I've heard in the longest time. "Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks you're so nice." I said as I feel my face becoming a tomato, yet once again. "Hi. My name is Joshua. I'm part of the leaders of the new youth group at our parish." "I know, I mean, I'm Annalynn. Nice to meet you." "That's a beautiful name. It sounds like an angel's name. Did you happen to fall from heaven? 'Cause I heard they're missing one from their orchestra." He said jokingly. I couldn't help but giggled and blush even more. "You're funny. But thanks. Well I have to go. It was nice meeting you. I have to…." "Wait sorry. I didn't mean to creep you out or anything. I was just listening to you sing and play at the mass and well……ummmmm……o.k. our group is trying to get a choir/band going for when we have our get together and stuff like that for the teens. And well, I couldn't help myself, and I was wondering if I could get your number so you could join us. So far we only have voices. And well, you. You're multi-talented. Will you like to be a part of us?" His voice quivered as he delivered the last line of what seemed to be a monologue. "Sure! I've been wanting to try something new." I gave him my number. I shook his hand and he pulled me over and kissed me on the cheek. I blushed once more. "Bye Joshua. I hope your wife doesn't say anything about you talking to me." I say joking. "Oh she won't. I left her at home." That fries wiped the smile off my face. I felt so stupid! I couldn't believe I just gave my number to him! I walked to my mom's car and put my things in the back and then I got in. TO BE CONTINUED.......... |
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Untitled by Stephanie Sagredo
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